*I’ll keep adding to this but this is just a moments rambling really!
I have learned the hard way that I do not believe in monogamy and won’t be shamed for wanting multiple partners in my life. I am bisexual and have been since I first saw 2 girls kiss when I was 17 years old. I’ve been gay and I’ve been bi. I’ve learned to speak up against bi-erasure by both gay and non gay communities. I have learned that I cannot live without corporal punishment – I can ride a wave of love and lust only so long before my thoughts turn to what is missing in my life. I have learned that a good sadist is hard to come by. Once you have one that pushes all the right buttons, never give them up. Even if you have many many sadists in your life. I’ve learnt that the best sadists are the ones that either switch or started out as bottoms. I have great respect for some of the most Dominant Pro Dommes I have ever known who went through apprenticeships doing submissive work, gathering experiences and information on how to be the best Top they can. I’ve learned that to be a good Top you have to be a good person to begin with. I’ve been a pro submissive for a very very long time and it’s a hard business to commit to. Hormones, relationships, life and possibly even moon cycles affect my ability to truly submit. I’ve learned that being hurt for money can be damaging to ones psyche and I need to look after my mental wellbeing probably even more than my physical. It only takes one bad session for that pain/ pleasure balance to switch, for doubts to creep in and eventually the matter wins over the mind. I’ve learned to read to open my mind, to allow for the expression required to navigate the deep waters of true submission. I’ve learned to love clients but only so much so that I don’t get taken advantage of. Submission is my life and it’s my career and I could easily give myself entirely over to it however I might find myself in the doghouse with only my lovers to keep me warm!