I went to a play party on the weekend and had a terrible experience. I suppose I forget that not everyone is in control of their Dominant side in the way we expect them to. Working with professionals we are all highly skilled and educated and most of all careful when playing with someone new. If we mess up we are responsible for that persons emotional state as well as their physical state and in turn we put our business on the line. Its pot luck at these public play parties.

It was getting late in the night and I was chatting with 2 tops – one incredibly lovely Mistress and another Top who I was attracted to but was a little too cocky for my liking. The Mistress has a gorgeous leather flogger draped over her shoulder and I asked if she’d like to have a go on me. The two of them strung me up on the St Andrews cross, pulled my leather jeans down to reveal my bare arse and the Top started taking swings at me with this very heavy flogger. It was the worst flogging of my life. I have lascerations across my stomach and breasts as well as my entire thigh area from the very heavy blows wrapping completely around. Being someone akin to a lot of heavy discipline I kept stopping them and giving them detailed instructions on how I like it – after about 20 blows at full pelt with fewer than 5 landing on my actual back i stood up and pulled me jeans back up. The lovely Mistress was trying to control the situation somehow, I could tell that, but the Top was just carrying on like they were a Sadist and this is what Sadists do.

I’ve been a submissive for 17 years and never had an experience like this.  This is what happens when you don’t discuss the scene intimately beforehand, have a crowd watching and let your ego take control.

I went home and gave thanks that my Master is a kind, skilled, loving and caring gentleman with a great backswing. I would have given anything to fall asleep on his cashmere sweater chest that night.

Please look after each other.